January 2009
16 posts
reboot
My faithful Acer laptop deserves a good pat, because it lasted a good three years of programming, daily work and plentiful of internet surfing. It has officially conked off, the screen is turning red, internet browsers do not work, or work for mere minutes, and disk is always full.
It needs to be reformatted, or thrown into the bin.
korean wave
I need a new dosage of K-drama.
green bills
I wish I could stretch my hands out for money for my school education.
I am not smart to land a scholarship.
I am not so fortunate to be born into a better off family.
Neither, do my parents intend to work harder to give me the money.
Sometimes, I tear when people ask why I do not want to go into University.
I want, but not now. Till I earn my own keep.
who are you
I am brought up as an unwanted child, whose good deeds went un-noticed, and bad deeds were over-exposed.
In a home where money is the key priority, and parents do not behave the way they should.
In the extended family, where divorce was the norm, and hardly a long-lasting couple lasted.
No matter who well I did, it was just right to do so.
Now, at twenty, I no longer remember who I am nor...
swollen
I hate myself for relying on others’ concern to show my worth.
I hate myself for waiting by the phone for my cell group leader to call and talk to me.
I hate myself for thinking that others who say that their cell group leaders don’t care about them when they are mature members, but yet I behave the same way.
I hate for thinking that it no longer bothers to be in a cell group,...
dislikes
abusive parents, who thinks that ‘spare the cane, spoil the child’ is by verbally abusing and excessive beatings.
such parents should not even be a parent.
unconditionally
deep down, we all love our best friends.
I grow from dislike to displeasure to enjoyment to love stages for my best friends.
You must learn to accept their incorrigible habits in order to love them for who they are.
It has always been good to sacrifice for them, but I also need to be showered with tender love.
I have a series of birthdays gifts in my mind.
For weiting, for meizhen, for...
think ting thing
Our little secret, for our ever cute leader.
people
The world is cruel, people do make use of one another.
I need to get away from people, and be alone.
It is not loneliness, it is being alone to clear the thoughts.
I am sick of facing them during cell group. Really, how can I enjoy cell group meetings when I do not enjoy being in their presence. I try to talk, relate, share. However, it comes forth that I am being not within their range....
heaven doors
When I go to heaven, and meet God, I will ask him a lot of questions.
Do vampires really exist?
Why didn’t dogs go to heaven?
How did he create dogs?
daylight
I wonder,
what makes a family ?